The choice to be positive

I strongly believe that we have a choice...we chose to be positive and we chose to be negative...
We choose to let good things into our lives...and we choose to allow bad things into your lives. If you have ever seen the Secret...you will know exactly what I am talking about..if not...Watch it!! It's impacting!!! The power of positive thinking has brought about GREAT things in my life...and I have many stories I could share where they have effected me.

Going into my first transfer I was all positive and full of energy and excited...yet the baby still passed...it was heart breaking and it took a real toll on my "positive thinking" theory...Well after 2 failed transfer...I decided I needed to pull up my big girl pants and get super positive again!!! SO here it goes:

I will get pregnant
The time is NOW
I will carry this healthy baby to term
I welcome abundance into my life
I am successful
I am ready and open
I am comfortable with who I am
I create abundance in all I say and do
I am a positive and happy person
I am ready to be a surrogate
I deserve perfect health and a vaginal delivery
My womb is a healthy place for a baby
I am intelligent and know what I want
I enjoy life
I can say "NO" when needed
The knowledge I need is coming to me
I am having an impact on my fertility
I have hope
I am taking charge of my fertility

"Whether you think you can or you think you can't- your right" - Henry Ford

I believe in the power of my words...and I believe I have an impact on what happens in my life. I am stepping forward with my life full of positivity...

Ball is rolling..

I was honestly starting to go crazy...every time I turn around someone is asking me, how's the surrogacy going? Are you pregnant yet? What's going on...and my response was always..Not pregnant don't really know what the next step is...

WELL I finally got a call today....

AND!!

We are starting our drug protocol *whew* I was getting antsy with all this waiting around!!!

IM is set for an egg retrieval in a few weeks time and then some awesome and healthy embabies are going to stick!!!

*fingers crossed* Can't wait for this journey to get kick started again!!!

Try try again...

Transfer #3 was a BIG bust...got Beta back yesterday and it came in at a whopping 1!

Was really hoping this was "the ONE" for IP's. No such luck.

Now were off for a break til June/July'ish...so I'm back to running and ganna try and shed this extra weight the hormones have gladly given me!

Thinking lots of positive thoughts as I prepare for our next leg in our journey!

3x3x3= SuPeR LuCk!!!!

After a LOOOOOOOOONG drive to downtown Toronto (left at 6:25am rolled in at 11am!) We got to Create...just on time!!!

I meet with an acupuncturist who has restored my faith in acupuncture. He used little needles and this gentle tapping technique and it was *gasp* r-e-l-a-x-i-n-g!!!

Then came the waiting game...acupuncture was all done with by 12:30, and I was feeling all warm and fuzzy and enjoying my relaxing huge massage chair...but didn't get in for the transfer until 3... was scheduled for 12:30
(...oh fertility clinics...)

But here's the cool thing:

Transfer was at 3pm, 3rd try & 3 embabies!!

Here's Hoping this is a super lucky sign!!!

2 week wait begins now...send me all your positive vibes and happy energy...grow babies grow!!

(IM took the pic with my camera of embryos...horrible pic...but I thought I'd add it...)

Mini update!

So ladies and gents...

My IP's had a very successful visit with Dr.L last week...he is quite confident that we are getting so close to successfully carrying that he wants to keep trying with IM's eggs!!! Which hello- AMAZING news for them!!!

So we are back on Estrace and baby asprin and scheduled to do a lining check for April 8th and IP's are hoping for a transfer for the Tuesday after that...

I took a break from the acupuncture as I was officially starting to look like a bruised peach and felt it was stressing me out more than helping our cause.

So we are booking a mini acupuncture session for my transfer where we will use the 3 remaining frozen embabies!! *fingers crossed* this is the ONE!!! (3rd times the charm right!?!)

*IF* this transfer doesn't work we are going to give it one more shot...and IM will harvest more eggs and do a fresh transfer come june/july'ish....either way they are harvesting eggs so they can give baby bean a sibling in the future!!

Lots of positive energy come from this surro-mamma here!!!

Can't wait to update with GREAT news....LET the roller coaster begin!!!

Cheers!!!

Not so much...

We did a transfer of 5 em-babies 3 weeks ago and things we're going great!! Our levels came in at 135 originally...which was AWESOME!!! Then 3 days later they came in at only 30 more...and today we got the dreaded news that we are all the way down to 59....which means we went from WOOOO we're pregnant!!! Let's celebrate...to whoops...we're not....All within a week...

So now to wait and see what Dr.L tells IP's to do. They have an appointment on Thursday and I will have to wait and see what he says....*fingers crossed* we're going to try again!!!

((hugs)) to my IP's...this is quite the roller coaster for them...I hope we can come to wonderful end to the journey soon!

Excuse me while I turn into a crazy $%&!

CAUTION!!!!!!!!
Angie is starting Estrace...
Be warned....
She will be cranky...
Might snap at you for NO REASON...
And may seem a little bit crazy!!!
BUT
She is still underneath all those hormones...
The SAME Angie!!

10 Days til lining check!!!